What does my home say about me?

Small Statue of an angel. Makes me think of St. Theresa of Avila the Catholic Mystic.  So I call her St. Teresa.

My front door. Small Statue of an angel. Makes me think of St. Theresa of Avila the Catholic Mystic. So I call her St. Teresa.

My daughter had a friend over recently.  Her Mom arrived to pick her up.  As she was waiting in my living room for her daughter to come downstairs, she asked if I was religious?  I said no, not at all and left it at that.

Today, I looked, really looked around my home and duh!  I have lived with these objects for so long and collected them over a period of time.  I didn’t realize how someone who does not know me, would perceive me.

When I was growing up I went to Baptist Church and when my father decided he wanted to be Pentecostal we went to Assembly of God Churches.  I never felt connected to the teachings but I always felt connected to something….

My daughter recently asked me what the difference between spirituality and religion is.  I gave her my OPINION spirituality comes from inside, your guided by your intuition, your spirit.  Religion comes from the outside, your guided by man, pastors, preachers  and whatever is the latest interpretation of their holy scripture.

I consider myself a spiritual person.  My life is my spiritual path, learning how to be present, practicing forgiveness, being kind to myself when I would rather self flagellate.

Here are some pictures of objects I have in my home.  Some of you know me, some of you do not.  What would you wonder about the person who lived here?  Feel free to share in the comments section.

 

My front door and entryway, found this old church pew at an antique shop in Georgetown, TX

My front door and entryway, found this old church pew at an antique shop in Georgetown, TX

 

I love climbing up the stairs and seeing this statue on the landing.

I love climbing up the stairs and seeing this statue on the landing.

 

1ST SPIRITUAL PRINT PURCHASED WHEN I TURNED 30 - HANGS IN MY BEDROOM ACROSS FROM MY BED

HANGS IN MY BEDROOM ACROSS FROM MY BED

 

Found at a thrift store, lamp works and its a great place for my malas

Found at a thrift store, lamp works and its a great place for my malas

Found this drawing of a nun at a flea market in California when I was in my late twenties.  She hangs in the landing on the hallway across from my daughters bedroom.  There is writing on the back of the picture that says 1420 Ann Creston Oxford Church, Swimbrook Parrish Church

Found this drawing of a nun at a flea market in California when I was in my late twenties. She hangs in the landing on the hallway across from my daughters bedroom. There is writing on the back of the picture that says 1420 Ann Creston Oxford Church, Swimbrook Parrish Church

 

Meditating Monk found at Ross

Meditating Monk found at Ross

 

 

My husband thought I lost my mind when I purchased this cross from a vendor outside of Wal Mart.  Where are you going to put that?  I don't know I said, and it landed in our hallway outside the bedrooms.

My husband thought I lost my mind when I purchased this cross from a vendor outside of Wal Mart. Where are you going to put that? I don’t know I said, and it landed in our hallway outside the bedrooms.

"Everyday is a gift" - small reminder when my family goes down the stairs in the morning.

“Everyday is a gift” – small reminder when my family goes down the stairs in the morning.

 

Jesus meditating in the lotus posture.

Jesus meditating in the lotus posture.

Meditating Frog

Meditating Frog

 

Bronze Ganesha Statue alongside Marble Carving of the Last Supper.  Right above that near the African doll is a Santo Nino de Atocha - supposedly Jesus Christ as a child dressed as a pilgrim.  My husband found it in a shop in El Salvador

Bronze Ganesha Statue alongside Marble Carving of the Last Supper. Right above that near the African doll is a Santo Nino de Atocha – supposedly Jesus Christ as a child dressed as a pilgrim. My husband found it in a shop in El Salvador

 

My 8 year old daughter drew and painted this picture.  I asked her what made her think of it and she said she felt like it.  Made me think of the Kabbalah Tree of Life.

My 8 year old daughter drew and painted this picture. I asked her what made her think of it and she said she felt like it. Made me think of the Kabbalah Tree of Life.

Back Porch.  We are able to see this Buddah from our family dining table.

Back Porch. We are able to see this Buddah from our family dining table.

Hangs in the laundry room, which I use to exit everyday so I see this as I leave.  Small reminders.

Hangs in the laundry room, which I use to exit everyday so I see this as I leave. Small reminders.

Sat Nam~

Marjorie

 

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What do you love about teaching yoga?

I was asked this question on a Yoga Studio application.  It is the first time I have been asked this question.  I have applied at a larger studio and a few gyms and no one asked “What do you love about teaching yoga”?

There was ample space to write in the answer.  I wrote:

“I teach because I love connecting with people.  Watching people change and grow with their practice.  I have had the opportunity to have a few students attend my classes regularly for almost a year and I could see the change.  Not just on a physical level, but feel it when I spoke with them on an emotional level.  Finally, I love teaching because it makes me accountable.  Accountable for how I live and how I  show up to teach.  As a teacher of yoga, I am a constant student of my students.   I continually read, learn, write and study yoga”.

It’s interesting that the studio wrote Love on their application.  Interesting because you have to love yoga in order to invest time, money and energy into the practice of teaching.  Yoga school is  around $3,000.  Weekend workshops are up to $300 if it’s a well known yoga instructor over $500.   Also, there  is your annual liability insurance and Yoga Alliance registration fee.  If you work for yourself add your marketing costs.

I wonder if there is anyone out there who would say “I love teaching yoga so I can become a rock star yoga teacher and make tons of money :).”

Yes, there are people out there that make tons of money teaching yoga (or a living wage), I don’t know any of them on a  personal level, but I have paid to attend there workshops.

The people I know, myself included, teach yoga on the side or teaching is not their primary source of income.  One to three classes a week,  sometimes a free class here and there.  Teaching a small number of classes because they love the practice of yoga and also know that being a yoga teacher is a practice in and of itself.   We are teaching others how to be present, how to move, how to practice asana and we are no different.   We are constantly learning what we are teaching.  As a yoga teacher I’m no different than the students I’m teaching. “In teaching we learn and in learning we teach” (I don’t remember who said that)

There is lots of love for those who try to piece together a full time income teaching yoga.  For me, it would feel like living on the edge. No health insurance, vacation pay, sick leave.  When you leave your  corporate job, you are leaving your corporate benefits.

I read once that in the Austin Area there are more yoga schools and yoga teachers than anywhere else in the country.  This is where I think things get crazy.

Here is an example and it is not unusual, I know people who have experienced this:

When you quit your day job trying to make full time income as a yoga teacher you may forget why you wanted to teach in the first place.  Needing to make a living while traveling to different studios is stressful.  Your teaching class and counting heads figuring out if you are going to make rent, eat, pay for gas to get to and from the studio (s).

Then here comes that new teacher and you now see them, not as a colleague, but as  dare I say it, competition.  You may begin to lose yourself in an attempt to make yourself stand out.  All of the sudden you are not teaching Yoga simply because you love teaching you are teaching because you (insert reason here…..)  Maybe you’ll keep going until your credit limit maxes out.  Who knows.

I don’t believe everyone who graduates from Yoga Teacher Training is meant to teach yoga full time,( sometimes I’m not sure what that means).  Enjoy the practice of teaching yoga.  Know that when the teacher is ready the student and financial opportunities appear.  When someone asks what you Love about teaching yoga, it won’t feel like a distant memory.

“If you want to understand something, write about it, if you want to master something teach it”.  Yogi Bhajan

Sat Nam~

Marjorie

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Deadline to Shed Skin ~ January 30, 2014

Happy 2014.

I have been avoiding my home office for the last month.  Avoiding my home office involves avoiding the computer, my journal, my blog.  Thankfully, I believe the entire month of January is the time for renewal, to get my physical and emotional house in order.  I have been avoiding the process  because it is a large task, hence, the reason I have been avoiding my office.

My home office is where all of the change takes place.  My journal and all the paper I horde throughout the year, books, scraps of paper with yoga poses and quotes.  Time to get moving…the year of the snake ends January 30, 2014, which is also my birthdate.

You probably know that when snakes don’t shed there old skin they die.  I’m not saying I’m going to die but I know it’s time for me to acknowledge and get rid of the crap from 2013.  Which involves acknowledging the good and bad in my journal. Writing where I would like my life to go in 2014.  Writing what I did not like and do not want to happen again.  This list also involves acknowledging relationships that I need to let go of.  Can you see why I have been putting it off?  Who wants to go through all that?

In Yoga Teacher Training we had a different instructor that led the Yoga Philosophy, Vedanta section.  I remember her saying that sometimes it gets lonely on the spiritual path because you start to see through others stuff and your own.  I’m finally getting that.

I’m recognizing that a few relationships are just not good for me.  People who complain without resolution or solution, it’s draining.   I  feel myself shrinking to fit into the space.    I feel I am playing small because far be it from me to find contentment with my life and what is.   If I make any positive suggestions to the toxic complainers “it’s just not that easy for me”?  Huh?  It’s not easy for anyone.  Happiness is a choice we make based on our choices.  Good or bad that’s the only thing we have control over.

Letting go of relationships that don’t work sends a message to spirit, god, universe, that you are open to finding new relationships that will meet you where you are now.  That will encourage your greatness and help you expand.

Letting go of books on your shelf that you will never read again.. Clothes that you will not  wear again and haven’t worn in forever…Stop filling my limited free time with people, places and things just to fill the space.  I’m starting to get it.  When you fill you space with nonsense, you get more nonsense.  It’s like telling, you know.. God, Universe, Spirit, there is no room here.

I’m making room.  Little by little.  I have the box in my office for the books, and paper.  My journal is open and the lists have been started.  Some people recommend burning the lists what is written has been fulfilled.  That may not be a bad idea since fire clears.

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Less than 15 days to go.. start shedding that old skin..  Get rid of all that you don’t need so that you are open and ready when the people, places and opportunities arise.

Here is  a link to some information on the horse year:  http://susanlevitt.com/astrology/horse-year-2014/

She writes: “Decisive action, not procrastination, brings victory. But you have to act fast in a Horse year. If you are not 100% secure about a decision, then don’t do it. Events move so quickly in a Horse year that you don’t want to gallop off in the wrong direction”.

Can you hear the hoof beats?  The year  the horse begins January 31st 2014.

Sat Nam~

Marjorie

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2013 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,000 times in 2013. If it were a cable car, it would take about 50 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

It’s interesting to note that one of the most read blogs is the difference between Hatha Flow and Vinyasa Flow.  Not too far behind was the blog I wrote in September about “Intentions”.

I went on an interview for a local studio which is a Hatha Based Studio, no Vinyasa and the owner asked the same question.  Yes!  There really is a difference, attend enough public classes and it’s noticeable.

I’m going to get back on the writing horse this weekend.  Keep a lookout for that post.  It’ll be a good one:)

Sat Nam~

Marjorie

 

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There Is Not A Reason For Everything….

After spending a month in the hospital and still feeling not yourself about the trauma your body went through a friend/relative says, “everything happens for a reason”.

You find out  you can only have the one child, your body can’t carry another child.  A relative/friend says “well, at least you have the one child, you should be thankful”.

You are having coffee with a friend and you tell her about someone you are no longer close to and you feel sad about it.  Your friend/relative says, “well, they are on a different journey than you”.

You don’t hear back on a job that you really wanted.  Your friend/relative says “well that was not the right job for you”.

Your mother in law ices out (which is a slang term for ignores and pretends they don’t exist) your husband and daughter  as a form of control.  Your daughter now asks why she doesn’t call.  A friend says, “be thankful you do not have to live near her”.

Can we say no shit? We know…

That everything happens for a reason

Be thankful for what you have

We are all on a different journey

Not everything works out the way we want

We can’t control another’s behavior, we can only control how we react to it.

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Don’t take away from another persons experience or their feelings of what is/has happened in their life, by giving a platitude.  You can feel when it is too soon to fill a space with it.

How about, “I’m sorry you are going through that”. Because you really are.

Sometimes we just want to hear, “that sucks”.  Because it does.

Sat Nam

Marjorie

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Can I Blame My Behavior On The Lunar Eclipse?

There was a lunar eclipse Friday Night.  From what I have read in astrology, usually lunar’s bring something needed to an end, mental or physical.

I made the decision this evening to stop teaching at the Gym.  Tomorrow I will notify Gym that I will no longer teach there.  In the last month I did not feel good going in, something happened this afternoon that synched it.

Since I have only been with the gym since July.  I was not able to notify all the people that attend my classes, only the few that follow me on facebook.   One of the women that attend my classes admitted that she was also not impressed with the staff.  That they all seemed the opposite of what Yoga should be.  Thank you for saying that Shelly.  I appreciate you for coming to my classes and being honest with me.

Those in the Yoga World may say, duh!! It’s a gym. What do they know about Yoga?

I would have continued to teach there, if, there was some basic structure and customer service skills.  You do not have to be a Yoga Studio to have that.

Can’t blame this one on the Lunar Eclipse but maybe I should be thankful for the energy of it.  I will thank my yoga practice for helping me be in tune with that energy.

The local studio that I worked at had to close.  I tried subletting but I can’t spend the time on advertising since I have to work full time. So off I go to find a new place to teach.  Wondering if I should have named my blog and facebook page Yoga Gypsy?

There is a second eclipse, a new moon solar that falls on November 2nd.  This one is supposed to “invoke the new”.

I will set my intention to have a new place to teach.

I will continue my practice of yoga, so that I can bring the best of me to those that take the time and money to go to my classes.

In the meantime:

“Take care of You.  Stop over giving, doing, or committing.   Stop ignoring what your own wise heart has been whispering.” Tosha Silver

I ignored my wise heart for a month.  What are you ignoring that should end?

Sat Nam~

Marjorie

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Intentions

Quite a few months ago I took a friend with me to a yoga class .  On the ride home she asked what the teacher meant when she told the students to “set an intention” for their practice.

I told her setting an intention is basically co creating with the universe, god, spirit…

The reason that the yoga instructor asked the students to set an intention is because it will change the physical practice of yoga to a spiritual practice.   Also, other teachers, myself included will sometimes end or begin class asking students to visualize their intention and asking them to feel what it feels like to already have that intention fulfilled.

Once that intention is set, you release the outcome.  Why?  Because we don’t control the outcome.  Everything will happen at the right time and place.

In November of last year while I was going through a financial upheaval I set an “intention” that I was going to work full time in January 2013.  I set the intention and released it. I wrote it in a blog post November 2012 entitled “It’s Easy To Be Spiritual…” January came and went and so did a lot of changes throughout the year, but no full time job.  I did have a lot of yoga teaching opportunities which helped.

Well, beginning September 2nd I will be working full time :).  I did not get the full time job in January like I “intended” but September is even better!!  All my life September has been my time for new beginnings, as I wrote in a blog post in August 2012 “September & New Beginnings”.  For me, the changes in September always flow naturally and I always feel rewarded.

At the time I wrote those blog posts in August & November 2012 I never thought of them as accountability posts.  I never wrote them with the thought of if I put it out into the world I’ll be held more accountable.

I started this blog with the “intention” (there’s that word again!)  of inspiring and connecting with people, not so much so that I will be accountable for what I write.

Then again, writing your intention down, whether it’s journaling or blogging is pretty powerful stuff.  Try it, set an intention, visualize and let it go.  See what transpires.

Sat Nam

Marjorie

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What Is Playing On Your Car Stereo?

I don’t listen to the stereo much because the Top 40 music these days…  I have a almost eight year old in the car with me and some of those lyrics are just dangerous.

I like to listen to inspirational CDs  and I do censor the music that I do play which is mainly rock music and some Kirtan here and there.  Journey, Bon Jovi, Sting, The Cure.. You see where I  am going.  My almost eight year old daughter has had the pleasure of some great lyrics and has been heard singing a Bon Jovi song  or two while sitting in a shopping cart.  “Yesterday is a history, tomorrow’s a mystery, today is a gift, that’s why they call it the Present” Bon Jovi’s 2008 Lost Highway is one of her favorites.

Last Thursday I purchased India Arie‘s latest CD “Songversation”.   I heard about this CD when I was listening to a interview she was giving on Hay House Radio.  Now, the sound of Rock and Roll and India Arie are on two different sides of the spectrum but I love the lyrics on two of her songs that was played on the interview and I had to buy the CD.

Her lyrics are so incredibly spiritual.  What I am loving about this particular CD is that my daughter fell in love with the song “One” which is track number 14.  She wants to listen to it as soon as we get in the car.  Needless to say I have been listening to this song 3 to 4 times a day as I pick her up and drop her off at day camp.

Here are the lyrics to “One”:

Verse 1:
Billions live their lives
Now Muhammad, Krisha, or the Buddha  are the way.
Still some believe it’s right to say in the name of Jesus when  you pray.

Chorus:
We are a human kind of 7 billion
so many  different races and religions
And it all comes down to one

Verse:  2
Some say God‘s a him
Still many believe that He is a Her
Does God  Live in our hearts?
Or is She somewhere out there in the universe.

(Chorus:)

Verse 3:
How far will have to go before we learn the  lesson?
Gandhi, was a Hindu
Martin Luther King, a Christian
God is a  religion, they knew love was the vision
And it all comes down to  one.

Verse 4:
Is there no God at all?
Or a pantheon of gods up  in the sky
We can heal our broken hearts
If we give up the desire to be  right.

We are a human kind of seven billion
So many different races  and religions
and we all want the same things
Health, Love, Prosperity  and Peace
Tolerance is the seed
And the gift of pure acceptance is the  tree

(Chorus:)

Verse 5:
Whether you are red, brown, yellow,  black, or white
Man with a husband, or a woman with a wife
We can debate  until the end of time who is wrong or right
or we can see ourselves as  one
Cause it all comes down to one.

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There you go.  Thank you India Arie.  This song is amazing.

My daughter is getting a little tall to sit in the shopping cart.  I am looking forward to the day when she starts singing this song out of the blue.

Sat Nam

Marjorie

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Why am I still up?

It’s after 10 p.m. on a Friday Night.  I should be asleep because I am tired.  Finally got the daughter to go to bed at 9 p.m. and now blessed quiet.

Until my employer find a new full time payroll technician, I will be working full time, temporarily starting Monday,  8-5 p.m. .

I plan on applying for the job.  I’m nervous but ready to go back to full time employment.  I’m going to apply and it’s a good time for me to practice non attachment, do my best and let the universe take care of the rest.

My Saturday Yoga in the Park class is cancelled temporarily.   I have to let one of my classes go so that I have enough of myself to give.  I’m not going to quit teaching yoga.  The yoga keeps me sane and on my spiritual path, and vice versa.   I plan to continue teaching Yoga when I’m 90 years old.

Well Happy Friday or whatever day it is to those who are reading this.

I found this online and have been posting it everywhere.

it's friday

Sat Nam

Marjorie

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Confessions Of A Yoga Teacher

Not as dramatic as it may sound.  I have not practiced any Yoga since Sunday.  As yoga instructors we are taught how important a home practice is.  In my 2nd year of practicing yoga I have had an almost daily home practice.  If I didn’t practice at home, I practiced at the yoga studio.

This week I was just tired.  Normally when I am tired I will force myself to the mat and do some postures, any posture, sometimes it motivated me and sometimes I did it so that I can say with conviction that I practice Yoga every day.  Hellooo my ego.. a.k.a. IBSC

I remember reading in Stephen Cope’s book “Yoga and the Quest for the True Self”  some days continued practice may move more energy around the system than you can bear.

That could be where I am or it could not.  Didn’t matter, I remembered it and decided to surrender to what I was feeling and rest.  My yoga practice since Sunday has been couchasana, catchingupasana on yoga magazines, my new astrology yoga book and reruns of Lost on Net Flix.

I forgot to mention.  I am practicing savasana.  Which is the ultimate healing and restorative posture.  So I guess I am still practicing yoga:)

Sat Nam

Marjorie

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